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I'm an adult with autism and I blog to RANT most of the time.

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Wednesday, August 4, 2010

I'm a sexy Na'vi!

I got Avatar for my birthday. LOVED the movie.

Found a fun dollmaker right after, and here I am as a Na'vi!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Dragons!

I keep an eye on dragons in the DC wilderness. Here's just a few I'm watching.



Babies!

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

OOOOOOOH YES.

The itching from the shingles rash is finally going away. It's not there, gnawing on my nerve endings like some flea intent upon eating the final shreds of my sanity. Another day and it might HAVE.

The rash still looks really gross. It's crusting over and scabby. I'm a scab-picker, so this is torture. If I pick it, I'll scar, and I don't want ugly twisted-looking skin on my boob or anywhere on my torso. I cut my nails really short so I won't be tempted.

Now if my nipple would just stop looking like a mutated turd, I'd feel better >:(

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Blah.

What a waste of time. I'm exhausted. Got driven around for two hours both ways just to hear a few words and get a new prescription for the ointment I use at night. $60.00 for the visit too.

Bullshit.

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Oh joy >:P

Had to go to the ER today because the itch was so bad. My mom took one look at the rash and told my dad she was taking me, and "if you want to sit on your fat ass, fine!"

So my dad can jump down my throat when I do something he sees as "wrong", but when I'm SICK he won't lift a finger.

NICE.

Anyway, we sat there for three hours while all the illegal immigrants with colds went before me. I sat there doubled over, holding my side through my shirt because it was hold it or scratch until I bled and get the virus all over my hands. No thanks. It itches on the surface and STINGS "underneath" if that makes any sense. I was and am still MISERABLE!

After the boring hours(which weren't so bad since Revenge of the Fallen was playing on the TV in the corner!), I heard my name. I finally got seen by a nice young male doctor and I was really embarrassed when I had to take off my shirt so he could examine the rash. I mean, it was COLD in the office so the girls were standing up like traffic cones. It doesn't help that I have one of those nasty blisters right on the edge of my nipple X_X; It SUCKS so many dicks to have a blister on your tit! Especially one that itches and burns and stings and makes you want to rip your boob off!

Doctor Ben(gonna use his first name) poked the rash with a swab and they tested it, and yep, shingles. Shingles at 29.5 years old. He said I'm a weird case to have it off the vaccine since I never actually caught chicken pox. Like I said before, I had the vaccine and was around my mom when SHE had shingles. The vaccine did cause me to get a few chicken pox blisters on my stomach and arm, so maybe I had it just enough to get shingles later in life. Maybe it's possible that everybody who ever had the chicken pox vaccine and got "pox" from it is gonna get shingles in the future, too. He also thought it was weird that I didn't have much pain first. I had stinging in the area, but it wasn't ZOMG OWWW!!!! pain and I sting around my boobs when I have my period anyway--I thought it was just that. Guess not, huh? -_- Joy.

I walked out of there with a prescription for Valtrex, which is an antiviral that will help my body fight the virus faster and prevent long term after-effects like a really nasty thing called postherpetic neuralgia, which can cause chronic pain.

Not much I can do about the fucking ANNOYING itch and sting though except to wait for it to pass. I've got this nasty black ointment I can put on, but it messes up my clothes and it's such a shitty small container that I only want to save it for when I go to bed. I know I'd run out otherwise. Fucking drug companies conspire to keep us sick and suck off our money! ASSHOLES! They must love my misery! >:( And I am so miserable right now. This is the worst thing to happen to me. I can deal with pain, but I can't STAND to itch AND hurt at the same time! When I'm not on the comp, I have to wear socks on my hands so I won't absently reach over and scratch myself bloody. The blisters look SO gross and more are growing. Ugh, this is HORRID!

Oh well, at least it's not on my face. My mom has scars on her lips and cheek from her bout of shingles.

Off to try and stay sane now.

FUCK YOU, HERPES ZOSTER VIRUS!!!

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Well this is lovely...

I seem to have a strange, annoyingly ITCHY blister rash all up my left side, just under my boob and wrapped around to my spine. I want to rip my own flesh off. This shit came on fast, like it was barely there this morning and now I'm climbing the walls, and of COURSE it's on a Saturday when there won't be a regular doctor in tomorrow. ALWAYS ON FUCKING SATURDAY, FUCK MY LIFE!

It can't be allergy to meds because I've had that before, and this is different. It looks like blisters. I think it's shingles. At 29.5 years old, I think I fucking have SHINGLES. How the fuck I do is anybody's guess(DR. HOUSE!!!!!!!) because the only exposure I had to chicken pox was via getting the vaccine and seeing my mom get shingles about six years ago. She got it on her face and neck and even her tongue, inside her nose and under her eyelids(EW!). It was horrible for her.

This sucks.

What else can happen to my health that's impossible?!

Fucking HELL I hate this! It's ugly and I itch so much I can't sleep!

Monday, January 25, 2010

Look in the mirror.

Some SICK person who I won't name left a comment basically hoping I'd drop dead and never realize any dreams--and you say I'm sick? Haha, too bad I already attained some of my dreams in life. :P Not everybody dreams HUGE, okay?